Saturday, March 14, 2009

It's Not All Bad... All The Time

In light of some things that have happened recently, I keep having to remind myself that it's not all bad, all the time. Even though the last few weeks I would rather just stick my head in the sand and pretend the rest of the world just doesn't exist. I have to keep reminding myself that there are some good things in life. Sometimes I have to look awfully hard to find them, but they are there. And sometimes I have to brush the dust off of them and polish them up a bit... but they are there.

My husband is always here. Even when sometimes I don't want him to be... he's here. He has made it perfectly clear that no matter how psychotic I can be, he's sticking around. He tolerates my heated rants, even though I think he's laughing on the inside. And even though I rarely admit it, I do need him on some emotional level that I'm still not entirely familiar with.

My kids are always here. Even when, like at the moment, they are picking on each other, fighting, screaming, and making me wish I was a drinking girl... my kids are here. They are, despite the occasional rottenness, my children. They each have their undeniable charms. It never fails to amaze me, how when I'm really down in the dumps and ready to just throw in the towel, these little humans can make it all go away. They wrap their little arms around my neck and give me snotty, slobbery kisses that just prove that it's not all bad all the time.

At the end of today, after we have decided to sell our house, after we've agonized over which path to take... we'll still have our family. It takes incredible amounts of patience and 'humble' to admit that it's all we really need. As long as I still have my incredibly geeky husband and my 3 weird little kids... it will be okay. I can live without all the extra fluff and the house in a state I never want to go back to. That stuff really doesn't hold much value in the areas that matter.

I've got my husband. I've got my kids. So how can it be all bad... all the time. I promise to return my pessimistic, snarky self tomorrow. But today I'm having one of those weird, sentimental (almost optimistic) moods. Heh. Don't get your hopes up, it WILL NOT last. Seriously, if I keep this up I'm going to have to add some violin background music. Blah.

1 comment:

  1. Hey don't forget your girls.. you know we are there!